yeah, i've been low before but honestly, this is an all timer. i've never in my life felt so shitty and helpless. usually when something is wrong i do something about it but i've tried EVERY FUCKING THING I CANT THINK OF. nobodys adivce helps. nothing. shit i hate this so much. i don't understand why he wants me to live with him so bad if i'm going to be depressed the whole time. it doesn't make sense. then again he is an asshole and i've come to realize he doesn't really care about me at all. he does what benefits him as i do the same yet i don't undersand why he wont let me move. i hate it here, i hate him for trying to keep me here, i'm not going to fucking stand it anymore. i'm so done. i have to be strong about this and straight foward and say what i want. no, say what i'm going to do. i have two months. i can do this. i hope so at least cause i don't want to think whats going to happen to myself if i have to stay here any longer. god, please help me through this. i really need you right now and it feels like you are totally shutting me out. i guess i deserve it huh?
SLUTS! i can't stand people who cheat and the person who helps is just as fucking disgusting! i'm shocked.
anyway, my dads going to bush's inauguration. ENOUGH! i'm so sick and tired of his rhetoric bullshit. i mean i'm happy he is so anti-bush but he crosses the line every fucking day. anyway, i hope he doesn't get arrested or anything crazy like that, he is still my pops.
i have english, bio, and art exams today except i don't have one in art. in english i was supposed to read this book and that was my exam but i didn't read it. i'm not sure about bio. oh well, either way i'm always going to fuck up. that's just what i'm good at!
i must be on my way. it's 7:01 so i'm a minute off schedule. peace and major fucking love.. always!